where to start... ive been feeling so lost lately. Me and Megan have been fighting. we act like everything is ok but its not. Our 4 years is coming up and really i dont even know what to do for it. I just want us to be like we used to be. Ive been eating everything i see. I just cant win. i only lost 41 pounds this year. i wanted to be one of those people who can say they lost 100 pounds in a year. i just don't want to be this fat person anymore. I want to have people to work out with. i want my family an friends and GIRLFRIEND to eat right with me. I know i cant force anyone to. I just want them all to be healthy. I just want ME to be healthy all i want to do is give up now but i cant. i cant just give up like that. i am better then that
On another note i get to dj kevs grad party with a big PA system. Its my first real gig an im kinda pumped. I hope that it goes well. if so it will make my year even better. i
i just needed to get all that out.